Day 110

Today I decided to do something a little bit brighter than usual, so there you have it!

It was actually cold outside, even though we're in the middle of spring I could sense a quite strong wind that made of  taking pictures a quite difficult task, and the ice cream was slowly melting!

When I woke up this morning I took my little doggy for a walk, later I decided to take this picture and spent some hours with it, I should have studied something but I just couldn't do it, I guess that we all need a free weekend without any kind of complications don't we? 

Patricia will come soon and we'll watch High School Musical to remember old days, such an awesome film it was! (I'm not being sarcastic)

Day 109

Today when I woke up I had to do an economics project, and I was so rushed that I forgot to put the index into it, and now I think I'll have to make all the photocopies again, ohhh my goodness. Anyways.

Later I started to study, but I found out that I wasn't able to do so, I would just get unfocused all the time, so I decided to go to the gym and at least make a little bit of sport which I need, a lot of weeks eating and studying makes me want to get outside my house as much as I can. So that's what I did. I went to the gym and did some swimming. I love the fresh sensation after the shower, I feel worked out and good with myself. 

Once I arrived home Manu rang me and we decided to go for a walk to do something, I knew he would bring his skate and he wanted for a long time to have pictures of him skating, so I brought my camera too! Jimmy and El Venzal came too so it was an amusing evening. It was really windy and no one was on the street so it was quite depressing though. Anyways, everything's better than having to stay at home!

Day 108

You took my light, you drained me down…That was then and this is now.-Katy Perry

This picture is 80% hair and 20% face so I find this funny for some reason! 

The picture had a really high ISO and it was almost impossible for me for the annoying noise not to notice, plus the eye looked really blurred so I had to take a picture of my eye afterwards and paste it here, sometimes while I edit picture I feel like a butcher. Seriously. 

Day 107

It's been said that love alters everything. 

Everything you had is likely to fade, to move, to crash, to dissappear, and you won't even notice it. It's like a drug, you only care about it, and what meant the world for you, slowly started to lose its meaning. 

I have to go back to the start. To the very beginning. To that night. I want to rewind and mend everything. I want to tell myself ‘Hey, you better not smile to him, or he might take everything away, you are better off without him’. But I was, as a matter of fact, happy.

He was chasing me, I was so naïve! Nights started to get longer, days would become brighter and an amount of memories would be made within days, and I didn’t appreciate it on his fullest. If I could only come back, to one of those nights, and talk with that person I knew, If I could only find a little bit of warmth towards me nowadays, if I had held him stronger, been more quieter, moved faster.

 Such a stranger he is, and now everytime I look at the calendar i feel shivers down my spine; how has he achieved so much in so little time? How couldn't I be aware of all the time that has passed, without me getting over him? Why am I so scared of the few weeks that I have left? It feels like a countdown. Twenty people might me able to take his place, I just need his conversation.
His words, his scent, his touch won’t linger on so easily.

But it must. How did he make such a deep bound in me? Weeks keep passing and I'm still defenseless. And in the middle of all this chaos, I notice that I did not only fail at love, but at this project.

I've received some e-mails from people asking me why was my project frozen, and they were worried because they didn't know what was wrong. I was wrong. I forgot about my biggest passion because of a boy. I'm still wrecked from the inside out. I had a lot of fun. I could spend days writing everything I've done while I wasn't here. But now all of that is unimportant, I need to mend myself. I need to come back. And I hope you can all forgive me for all this matter.
I don't know when everything will go back on its course, I don't know if I'm ready to take a picture every day again, but I'll try my best.

Let's keep making stuff.