Day 169

Friends. I tend to remember them when everything goes away and they help me, they take care of me, they cheer me up, they make me realize that I might not be as fucked up as I think I am.

These lasts days, I've written more than ever. Pages and pages. To my friends. Talking about my feelings, thinking and over thinking any little thought I had in mind and turning it into a long text. I'm explaining myself more than ever. My mind is naked, there is no dusty corner, there is not a space that is left without being shouted out loud. I think I'm growing as a person. Today, in fact, tonight, I'm realizing how much I've changed these lasts months. Maybe this last year. I'm not how I used to. I think I'm growing up. It's kinda ironic to say that when I still do childish and dumb things, but I think that I'm becoming mature. I don't know how to explain this, but I just find that I have a way of thinking that I didn't have before, I know how to comfort people, I know how to express myself in the correct way. I'm not flattering me or saying I'm becoming supercool, I'm just pointing out something quite obvious if you come to think about it when you're sixteen. You are close to the university. It's normal that everything change. And even though this relationship is slowly killing me, I know that it will last, as they all do, and I will move on. With new ways of seeing the world, with new frustrated dreams, with everything.

I still have a lot to learn, I still have to find out more things. I need to actually live. 

Okay. So this is what happens when you're in the middle of a sentimental crisis and you listen to 'Yellow' by Coldplay over and over while you write. 

Day 168

Sometimes, the right thing doesn't always feel right. But in this case, the wrong thing feels right. Not the kind of right that leaves you in a  peaceful mood. The kind of right that leaves you gasping, crying, thinking why the things went the way they went, how come that nothing goes the way you want them to. The kind of right that won't let you sleep, that will keep you restless, waiting for an answer that will never come, even though the question is asked. 

Is the kind of right that keeps you thinking 'I did everything I could, but didn't he love me more than that? Wasn't I worth it? Is he hiding his feelings?'. I'd give all my savings for a simple answer.

I hate it. It's unfair. I deserve better. I deserve an answer. But I won't ever have it.

Day 167

Today I could have spent the whole day sleeping and reading old conversations which made my heart both sank and sing of happiness at the same time. I shall not hold on old promises but sometimes they taste so sweet it almost feels good to close the eyes and recreate scenes that will never happen. It almost feels good.

My parents made me go outside to see a little bit of all the summer that I'm missing. 

Day 166

If I could have one wish right now, it would be to vent him everything I'm thinking since the day we stopped talking.

I would need minutes, hours, to express everything I'm feeling because it's endless. The questions that I wonder, will be left unanswered. The feeling of unfairness that I'm experiencing is every time stronger. I don't know. I could seriously tell you everything, I'm feeling more inspired than ever to write down everything. The whole story. But I won't because it's useless, nothing will go back to normal, and I need to move on without him.

I know the handwriting is messy, and it's not aimed for being read. I just wrote really quickly with my graphic tablet the first thing that came into my mind. Damn.

Day 165

Hello everyone, so this is Patricia!

Today we went for a calm walk and just spent some time together just gossiping, talking with old men, and walking. It was nice! The sun was just setting and she knew I wanted to go 'Where the light were' so I took the advantage of taking some portraits of her even though she was nervous because she didn't know if she could hold her laughter. As you can see, she succeeded, good job Pláfida!

Day 164

So! The wavy part of hair is because I took the three little braids of and that's how it came out!

Today I went to the beach and later hung out on my city's boulevard. It was nice. I mean, I'm getting used to be here in summer. There are still some friends here and I kinda enjoy sitting in the shadows with a fresh monster can while talking with some friends about life in general. Later I had a dinner with more friends and I don't know. Quite a peaceful day. With some little flaws which I might try to forget. Some faces that are really hard to forget. Or conversations. But that are totally meant for the trash.

Day 163

What do you do when you know you're about to open a scar that took ages to cure just because you suddenly have the feeling that things can go the way you want them to go? Should you follow your heart, or your mind? Should you ignore the 'What if' or not? Should you regret what you did, or regret what you didn't do? Should you remember old promises or just throw them away? There's a big difference between what I ought to do and what I want to do. There’s no advantage of opening my scars again. I'm just deciding if this summer will be an average one, the best of my life, or a bad one.

I know that the picture in general is... weird. I look weird. But I just didn't want the wall that you always see and today I painted my nails orange, which reminded me of oranges, so today picture had to be oranges.

Tips on photography! What you'd like to 

know?

(Original post)


Lately I've been getting quite a lot of messages of people that are just starting on photography or feel a little bit lost with all the things that photography has to offer to a person, and they asked me for advice.I don't consider myself a great artist, as a matter of fact, I'm aware that I'm still a beginner in the huge world that photography involves. And instead of answering every message I think that it's better to do an article so more people can read it!

As I said before, I don't consider that I'm good enough to give tips and tricks to anyone, but I thought that it'd be nice to put some things that I know into one article, even if it's not too much I guess that it might help someone, and if it does, I'd be very happy to aid a fellow artist, at the end of the day, that's what deviantART is about! Isn't it?

So, is there anything you're interested to know? About deviantART, showcasing your pictures, cameras, Photoshop, set-up of pictures, field of photography? I'll try my best to answer any tiny doubt the best I can!  


Don't hesitate or be shy! 



-Guada

Day 162

Today I had my hair cut!!!!

This doesn't happen really often. Maybe once or twice a year because I love to keep my hair long, but today the hairdresser also made me three little braids which I totally love!

Anyways. Besides that, today was a normal day where I went out with my friends as I did before my cousins arrived. With the big difference that it felt.. weird. I was really happy to go to the places that I usually despise because they are always the same.

I know it's a feeling that will change for sure throughout the days are passing by. But it was nice to see my friends once again!

Day 161

Bye cousins, hello monotony.

So my cousins left today after we spent some days together when I showed them (And you with the pictures) a little bit of where I live. It's been nice for a change to show you more simple landscapes and it was also nice to see my family after three years. But as they came, they had to leave. That's the problem of having such an international family, we're all constantly traveling, seeing each other, missing, living totally different times... but I guess that's the way that it should be. Because I was born with this reality, I'm used to it. Anyways. Now I'm just thinking that I don't really want to do anything for the next days. Lovely summer.

As a matter of fact. I did do something today. I've opened a Facebook fan page! After a lot of time hesitating and wanting to open one, it's finally here! I'm aware it won't have many followers but I don't really care about that matter, I just wanted to do one and now it's on! 

So if you like my work and want to get more stuff from me, like the Facebook page,

thank you so much!

Day 160

Look at this bear! Isn't it the cutest thing you've ever seen? Awwwww!

Today I went to the zoo with my family, we had a great time and even though I've taken a lot of pictures, I don't like them. I just like two or three but the rest are not good at all, but oh well. I guess that I cannot be proud of my pictures every single day!

Okay. And now I'd like to say something that happened this morning, when I woke up and I opened, as usual, deviantART with my iPod to see the news. 

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I GOT MY SECOND DAILY DEVIATION!

thisisactuallythebesthingontheworldohmygodimsohonoredtohavereceivedoneithinkimgonnalaughorcryoridunnothisisjustamazingiloveveryon

I remember that almost one year ago I got my first DD and I felt like the happiest chick in the planet, I just felt like that once again, this time thanks to  her and to her.

You might be wondering what picture was the awarded one, and that's even better, because it's a picture that has been displayed in this project! 

Indeed, I'm talking about this picture, which I remember that was taken with my brother's old point-and-shoot camera while my Sony Alpha was repairing. If it hadn't been because I decided to keep the project even if it had to be with a worse camera, that picture wouldn't exist and I wouldn't have had my second DD.  I also remember that taking that picture was really hard because the tripod was on the bed and every time I was pressing the shutter button I had 10 seconds to pose and while doing so I knew that my camera could fall into my head in a matter of seconds, because the tripod was moving every time I was landing on the bed. But it was definitely worth it.

I'd also like to thank to the deviantART community once again, because it has been supporting me since the very beginning almost three years ago, and maybe if it hadn't been because of all the inspiration and support I had received from them, now this project wouldn't even exist.

So thank you very very much deviantART.

Never gonna leave this bed. by *Gingershots on deviantART

Day 159

So today I went back in time to the old western and had the amazing opportunity to take theme pictures  and specially portraits! We live near the desert, as I told you before, and that was the key for making of Almería one of the best places to set western films, and some others just as Indiana Jones, Asterix and Obelix... so we also have a theme park! We wanted our italian family to see it, so today we went there and as I told you before, I could take some pictures which I really like, because they are portraits of characters, because the actors kindly modeled for me while I was pointing them with my camera, and that made the job much easier! I love to see their expressions, their clothes and the background all together, because I truly feel as if I went back in time to capture some moments! I tried not to use a lot of effects and keep the pictures simple, they are just portraits  of strangers, as I always do, but this time the strangers are willing to pose for me, and they are customized! 

Click on the first picture to see the  slideshow of them all on big size! 

Day 157

Today we could really appreciate how arid the zone I live is. Almería is near the only dessert that Europe has, so you can more or less get how rainy our weather is (Sarcasm). Luckily we own some long beaches so it kinda lowers the feeling of heat which might be accentuated in some parts of Spain such as Madrid. I don't really like the landscapes that I see everyday because I'm a lover of forests, green fields and long path walks with little flowers of all the types, such as I did last year with Switzerland, where I filled my heart with the most beautiful landscapes I ever had the chance to see in real life. But oh well.

Day 156

 Yay! I really like this picture because it looks funny to me, like a little big toy city with a lot of colors. I love doing tilt-shift pictures because I think they look really cute, even though I'm not doing many I might as well do more in the future! Here in both pictures we can see one of the neighborhoods that I have on my city, it's not a really wealthy neighborhood and the reason why I was there is because we got lost on the way to a building, but oh well, I took the advantage of the situation to take pictures of the colored houses, which look fairly interesting to me!

Day 155

 Today we went to a really old moroccan castle that we have in my city and which I don't really find fancy, but I like the little flowers that are in the gardens so I took a lot of pictures of them! What I don't like about these pictures is that they look better in the tiny version than that in the expanded one, I think that it has to do with the blur that was on the picture and that I had to correct sharpening it with Photoshop...
Oh well, enough thecnical rambling for now! I might be boring you.

This is a picture that my cousin took of me,
it's actually kinda strange to have my picture taken without me noticing
because I'm usually the one who does that!

Day 154

This is a picture for all the cats lovers out there! I used to have tons of cats on my house when I was a child and I cherish very good memories with them, but currently I'm really happy with my little doggy Luna and I wouldn't changed her for any animal! Actually, I remember a picture I took one year ago in almost the same place, and I wouldn't be surprised if this was the same cat that I saw back then! Anyways, I love cats, they are cute!

Week 21:52 by *Gingershots on deviantART

Day 153

If you have been following my work on DeviantART you'd notice this is not the first time I submit pictures of my sister's eye, but it's the first time I upload a picture of her eye here, so is totally fine with me!

The eye looks extremely photo-manipulated, but actually her eyes are just that way, and that's why I

like them so bad, because they are brown and blue, such a strange mixture that really captivates me. 

My sister is such a lovely girl, she's really polite and a really good person. When we were littler I just couldn't stand her, but now we get on wonderfully. Plus, she wants to learn photography!

Day 152

I hope that these simple shots don't bore you. I just remember that I told you that this summer I wanted to show you more of my city because I spent the whole winter taking pictures at my house and it felt as if I had no city. So, even though in winter my pictures were 20% picture 80% Photoshop, now in summer with these pictures it's being more like 80% picture 20% Photoshop, which is fine in a way, but might be quite boring and simple for some. Oh well, every period has its features!

Today we made a tour through the oldest part of my city to my cousins, my aunt and my uncle, the bad thing is that we did that at midday, and I totally despise the strong sun and shadows that the midday sun offers, if it was for me, I'd take pictures at twilight every single day!

Day 151

So this is me with a bun. I don't look really fancy but I liked the picture as a whole and how the blur came out! It almost looks as if I was using a f/1.4 lens (Ha! I wish) but it was just Photoshop with its lens blur, magic! At first the picture was in color but today I felt like doing a black and white just for the sake of doing it. You can see in the picture just a tiny part of my cousin's Nikon D3000 which I've been trying out and has a lovely lens that I'd looooove to own. But I cannot ask for more, I'm really glad with my new computer now that I know how to use it properly!

Day 150

 

Today I just can bring you a quick shot because it has been a really chaotic day! We spent the whole afternoon on sales with my cousin and we bought quite a lot of stuff, I was trying on some jeans and I accidentally left some expensive make-up on a store, then two hours later I noticed that (I just forget everything all the time, I'm like hypnotized!) and luckily when we came back they had my stuff, yay! I always lose stuff, but I'm quite lucky when it comes to find the stuff I lost, I've lost a lot of stuff like purses, 50 euros, expensive make-up, DNI pictures... So if I ever go with you, don't ask me to hold anything because I might lose it!

Day 149

My cousins have finally arrived!

It's been ages since I saw them for the last time (3 years) so I was really happy to see them once again, they were all so grown up! At 4 o' clock we went to pick them up from the airport and after some chat we decided to show them the maritime path near the sea of my city. While we were there we ate a banana split with a lot of ice cream (Yummy) and had a really nice time together. Tomorrow we will go on sales and will do a lot of other things. It's really nice to have them here because I'm finally breaking my summer routine and doing something different, yay!

Day 148

Click the picture to enlarge!

Lately I've been feeling kinda down. Like I was lacking of something. Like a whole. I didn't feel fully happy, and I knew the answer right away; I have a thing with photography, and that thing is that it's my life-time hobbie. Is the thing I love the most doing in the entire planet, it's my way of self-developement, the thing I use to challenge myself, the thing that I want to improve the most. And if I spend a long time without creating things I'm proud of, I feel sad. It's like I'm damned to be unsatisfied forever; I can look at a folder and see a lot of pictures that I'm proud of. I can make a masterpiece (I'm not saying that I had, just an example) and yet, if after some weeks I hadn't created something I'm proud of. All of that will totally go into waste because I won't feel as if I'm satisfied as a person. 

So I had this feeling for a long time now, and I decided to develop an idea I had in mind for months, more than half a year probably. Today I decided that it was the day where I was going to be proud of myself once again. And I can happily say that I kinda succeeded. 

I covered my rooms wall with a lot of newspapers and spent like two hours taking pictures, re-arraging newspapers and just enjoying something that would have been a boring Monday morning if I wasn't doing that. I have more pictures to upload and this is not the main picture of the photoshoot, but it's the one I decided to edit the first, so there you have it!

Also, there is one important matter I wanted to talk about:

Today I was flicking through this blog and I found out a comment that I missed when reading them, so it was the first time I read it. It was from some months ago but it kinda stroked me. It was from a girl who said that she likes my pictures but was kinda disappointed because I just stopped submitting pictures to the project. I just can't explain how bad I felt when I read that comment because it was totally true. I disappointed myself too, and it's something that I don't think I'll ever forgive me for doing so. I just started to think of all those days in which people would enter here to see my daily picture and had found nothing and I felt like the stupidest brat in the planet. But guys. There is something I need you all to know. I'm an human. I'm not perfect in any way. I just mess up things, my life is sometimes a chaos, my mind is sometimes a chaos and I just can't cope with everything. It's not that I just decided to leave this project, or I got bored of photography. I love this place. I love sharing not only my pictures but my thoughts and my writings to all of you. I love knowing that some of you actually takes their free time to check out my stuff and every time I receive an e-mail of any of you saying that you like my project or to cheer me up I am the happiest wrecked girl in the entire planet. So I hope that you understand why sometimes I don't submit the pictures at the right time and I hope you forgive me for being the way I am sometimes. Hehe.

Day 147

More flowers to you all! Damn it. I've almost taken pictures of all the types of flowers that you can find around in my city, which as you might have guessed, are a few. But oh well. I just find it fascinating to see how the light reflects through the leaves. I think that one of the things that photography has shown me is how beautiful nature is. Seriously. When I was 12 years old, I could have watched the most beautiful twilight and don't have given a damn. That wouldn't happen now. Firstly because I'd be shouting for wanting to have ANY camera, then I would rush to take pictures and finally I would stare at the sun until it finally disappeared.